Hitting that snooze alarm again thoughts flood my mind - a to-do list a mile long.
I wake every morning, open my eyes and think to myself I can still see. I close my eyes again and am grateful to have another day of vision. It's an everyday reality for me. I'm an artist, a designer. I've won awards for my work. To be judged by your peers and to come out on top is an incredible feeling. Then one day a doctor tells you "You have open angle glaucoma. You need to start treatment immediately to keep your eyesight".
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What? NO. NO. NO no no.....a clutching fear, a searing reality begins to fester and spread. My legs feel like someone filled them with Jell-O. "What? Maybe you're wrong!" my mind screamed silently.
Five years ago I was diagnosed with this horrible disease. I cried for two days. My eyes, my vision - my most prized possession - how could this be? My grandmother and uncle both had glaucoma. I was the lucky winner in my family genetic pool. I got the disease for which there is no cure. None.
Everything went well for a few years. No issues, one eye drop a day. And out of nowhere Glaucoma decided to show me who she is. Pain, vision loss, uncontrollable pressure spikes, severe debilitating reactions to different drops. All at once I was hit with panic, struggle, anxiety attacks, loss of hope. Trying to work, drive - even just function was an astronomical task. And then surgery. A tube called a Baerveldt shunt was implanted in my left eye. Eight weeks recovery. I didn't believe the doctors. I thought I'd be up and running in two weeks. I was oh so very wrong. Complications and setbacks, fear and depression clouded every waking moment. Almost two years later my eye pressures are now stable - today. Yet that could change without warning. And I'm one of the lucky ones.
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Glaucoma needs to be taken seriously. We can't wish it away. Our lost vision won't ever come back. The eye drops have side effects that we don't talk about much because those drops are our lifeline to sight. We accept what the drops bring because there is no other way. Those drops are our new religion.
If we begin to acknowledge it - it exists. We have hope. Hope of new treatment. Hope of a break through in research. Hope for maybe one day a cure.
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Glaucoma isn't picky. It can strike anyone at any stage of life. There is no cure. Vision that is lost cannot be regained. Get the facts. Schedule an appointment with an ophthalmologist for a comprehensive exam today. Glaucoma can happen to anyone, anytime. A high risk group includes having a family history of glaucoma, being very nearsighted or diabetic. African Americans, Hispanics, also being over the age of 60 increases the risk. You can be born with glaucoma. There is treatment - lifelong treatment - once you are diagnosed. But you must be first diagnosed.
For information on Glaucoma please visit www.glaucoma.org, the Glaucoma Research Foundation's web site.
You can also find more information on the National Eye Institute's site www.nei.nhi.gov.
It's your vision. Don't lose it.
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